It's been 7 years.

I'd like to say "I'm moving on", but that would be a lie. I'm still not sure how those words can come out of those who have grown up with them and given them so much of themselves. Directly or indirectly, it's a little more personal than just that.

I knew in the back of my mind that they would have gone out without a bang. I imagined small news being leaked bit by bit until we were numb to these blows, and then... we would've just grown up. Grown out of this painlessly, maybe wistfully, but no bitterness, no sadness, just a lingering nostalgia for what used to be. I've grown out of a lot of fandoms this way, but this... not this time. I don't know what it is about them that I can't let go of. I want some kind of closure, something more than empty promises. It's the same kind of closure the rest of us are looking for. I wish you had my answers.

We're still playing the waiting game, half a year later. It's nice to see optimism, and people leaning on literal translations, picking on those specific words such as "temporary suspension". Secretly, we all know already. It's been too long, so long that you'd think we'd be okay with this. It still hurts like a bitch, though.

Be happy. You don't have to be 동방신기, or 김준수 박유천 김재중 심창민 정윤호 in that order, or Asia's top stars, or conquer the world, or be perfect. Just don't forget each other. And most of all, don't forget those promises you've made to each other onscreen and behind the camera. 5-1=0, regardless of a label behind your names.

I won't move on to another group, and I'm probably taking a bit of a break from k-ent (tbh, I already have been...), but I won't forget. I just want the best for you. If things fix themselves and we can go back in time to 2004, I would probably burst into song. If not, well. I still love you. Thanks for the amazing memories.



Lastly,

Q. If DBSK breaks up, what will you want to do?
Yunho: If that does happen, I will gather my members again. As the leader.

I'm holding you onto that, leadersshi.